Hope for the best, but prepare for the worst.

Am i not worth 2 minutes of your time? Sitting outside your house inside my car for a hour i got the courage to finally text you, hoping that you’ll at least come outside to see how i was doing. Constantly having my hopes shot down i thought maybe tonight would be different. I wanted to make sure you were doing fine, looked fine, felt fine. I know i dont mean much to you anymore but you still do mean a lot to me. I wanted to embrace you with all these bottled feelings, a simple hug and hello. I was crushed, left outside in the cold i patiently waited. Knowing I was at the right place and right time i waited. Is a hug and some words too much to ask for? I just needed someone there to realize that im not doing well. Someone to just listen to the words that i;ve been dying to say. Now im stuck with millions of thoughts and questions. Why? Why can’t you understand that with you around I feel at ease? Why am I always shunned and ignored? Why can’t we just be friends? The one thing that I want at the moment is for you to realize that I’d rather be a friend than nothing at all. But i guess it’s a bit too late. Ill leave it at where it is and I promise i wont bother anymore. I really did hope we would’ve ended a lot better. I miss you, care about you, and have realized that i just need to forget about everything. Man, why must you have made such an impact?