Hope for the best, but prepare for the worst.

I always find myself lonely and abandoned. I’m always the first person to be dropped and last to be held onto. It feels as if I;m nothing more than an acquaintance to all of those who I care for. Not once am I the one to be hit up unless it’s to see if I can provide for those who actually call. I’d like to just talk to someone sometimes. Just a simple hello or how are you doing. Maybe have someone care that I;m alive once and awhile. I mean, I’d like to believe that im worth as much as a hello, but sometimes it kills me inside. Watching others receive greetings on the daily, hanging out with friends who actually care, happiness with their company. It honestly puts me in such a horrible place. I questions myself all the time nowadays. “Im I that boring? Ugly? Hard to speak to?” Life at the moment just isnt look up atm.